Why Do They Leave?

By Kristine Kaoverii Weber | July 28, 2023

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I inherited a class at an upscale fitness center from a yoga teacher who was leaving town. She was a firecracker – hilarious, strong, and precise, she was known for teaching vigorous flow and not pulling punches. I knew taking over for her wasn’t a perfect fit for me, but I was hungry for more chances to teach.

She warned me about a person who would probably drop out, saying that she’d told her she didn’t think my teaching would be challenging enough.

She showed up for a few classes – she was tall and wiry with short, graying hair, simple black framed glasses, and an athletic body. However she didn’t last long, after just a few weeks she dropped out. I’ll admit I felt defeated and deflated.

 

A few weeks in another person opined that she missed the previous teacher and asked me to pick up the pace. She let me know that she ran five miles each morning and loved hard yoga workouts. She also told me that she admired me because, “I think it’s great when people who are 10-15 pounds overweight hold themselves with so much composure.” After a few weeks, she was gone too. No surprises there. 😬

But while I was stressing out about losing those two because of my shortcomings, something more important was happening in the rest of the class: they kept coming back. And slowly, over time, more people started joining us (even some dedicated athletes who told me my classes helped them bring balance their strong exercise routines).

Psychologist Rick Hanson likes to say, “The brain is like Velcro for negative experiences, but Teflon for positive ones.” It’s so easy to remember the sting of those who’ve dropped out – and it’s even easier to make up stories about why – and interpret their actions as a reflection of your inadequacies. 

 

So, I had to practice the alchemy of turning Teflon into Velcro. And I did this by shifting my gaze away from caring about why some folks leave and towards caring about those who didn’t. Like the person who told me that she got through her mother’s illness and death because of my classes…and the one who stopped drinking and saved her marriage… and the one who started playing with her grandchildren because her back didn’t hurt anymore…and on and on and on.

When I keep my focus on being present for and supporting the people who do return, I am a much better and more confident teacher. It’s also a huge relief. Thank goddess I don’t have to be everyone’s yoga teacher.

 

Teaching yoga isn’t a popularity contest, it’s a vocation – one that can be full of lessons. For me, one of the big ones was embracing the reality that some people need different things at different times in their lives – and that has nothing to do with me or my competence as a yoga teacher. Competence is important of course, but it’s a different issue. The ability to shift focus away from people who don’t value what you do towards people who do value it is essential for successful teaching.  

When you teach, you put yourself out there – for everyone to project whatever they want onto you. You sign up for that and it requires a thicker skin. You have to let go of trying to manage anyone’s ideas about you. Those ideas or judgments or misunderstandings are none of your business anyway.

Letting go of an obsessive need to feel useful or loved or good or perfect and allowing people to evaporate from my mental space has been incredibly liberating – a mini mokṣa. Part of the process is owning that these are my lessons, my stuff – not the lessons of the people who come to my classes. 

 

Recently I’ve had a few conversations with teachers who are grappling with the insecurity and confidence-dissolving issue of low numbers in their classes. As my 19-year-old son would say, “I feel you.” 🤗 I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to teach a one-person class and I’ve spent plenty of hours in empty yoga spaces doing my own practice because no one showed up.

There have been other times when I made the decision to let go of a teaching gig because there was too much output for little or no return on investment. There have been other times when I pushed through, did a little more marketing, called people, waited, and slowly built up the class over weeks, months, and sometimes years. 

This profession is often a waiting game.

 

While I never saw the short-haired athlete or the 5-mile-a-day runner again, some people who left my classes for whatever reason came back years later – what was not right for them at one time became right for them later. And it’s not only a matter of age – I’ve had classes peppered with 20-somethings gushing with gratitude because they found what they needed in my teaching.

I think one of the most important shifts that happens in a yoga teacher’s career is when you decide to stop trying to make everyone happy.

If yoga has filled you up in some way, if it’s transformed you and from that realization, you have developed a desire to share your knowledge and experience with others in the hope that you may support them in their own transformative process, then congratulations. You have unearthed a precious piece of your svadharma – your purpose. Keep going. And watch with just a little curiosity and a lot of gratitude as the built-on-false-ground inferiority complexes and negative self-talk falls away revealing the light that you truly are – a light that is integral in supporting others through their own journeys.

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